11/19/2009 - Do you really have to care?

No joke, that came from the random prompt generator.

This is one of the things I've been trying so hard to figure out. There are many things that you can decide not to care about. You can call it being "easygoing", or "laid-back", or just not care. But for me there are certain things that lie at the core of my being that no matter how nice it would be to not care, I'm unable to not care. Maybe it's a philosophical idea like pacifism, or a current day issue like equality, or more often a person who is so closely entwined in my life that no matter what, I will care.

So yeah... you do have to care, at least about some things and some people.

8/28/2009 - If I were going to be stranded on a desert island, what 10 items would I want in my pockets?

(Will try to answer honestly... i.e. no shortwave radios)

1. Sharp knife
2. Rope
3. Photo of family
4. Poncho
5. Compass
6. Machete
7. Axe Head
8. Binoculers
9. Fishhooks
10. Fishing line

Busy Busy Summer

Well... time flies so fast, it's been a number of months since I last took the time to write much at all.

There is much that is wonderful... being a parent is amazing. Our little girl is growing and thriving and we are so happy and grateful for her presence in our life. I'm enjoying a summer that has been full of good interactions with family, friends, and loved ones. It's terrific to look back and realize that even a bad day now is better than a good day last fall. Of course it's not perfect, there are still days that carry discouragement and I still have many questions, but recently I've enjoyed being able to not obsess over that discouragement, those questions, and yes, that depression that was overwhelming a year ago.

Some things still remain a challenge. Finances are especially tight right now, and I'm not sure how that's going to work it's way out. There are still people who are hard to understand and harder to put up with. And I still often expect others to empty the glass, instead of helping me to see the half glass that is there.

But we're still going, still hanging on, and I'm so glad life is challenging. It's much more interesting that way.

EMC World nearly over, whew!

Well, the week is nearly done. I've taken in numerous sessions, spoken with many resources and contacts, wandered around the huge conference center with thousands of other geeks, and thouroughly enjoyed the blogger's lounge and the nod to social networking it represented. EMC is a technology company that prides itself on pushing the envelope of technology. Still it's gratifying to realize that they are indeed recognizing value in collaboration. Seems that much of the way business approaches alternative interactions like twitter, wikis, blogging, etc... is to give lip service so they can say they are using the technology, but not really invest time and effort in using them. EMC is at least exploring what benefits can be realized while using social networking. So good to see.

This morning left the hotel with a different bag and didn't realize I had left my pass in the old one until we got here. So I've been dodging security and trying to look like I fit in. Seems to be working, which kindof bothers me. I'm ok being a geek, but it's disturbing when it feels so natural. 

Heading back to the hotel in the next several minutes, finish packing, and then head for the airport. Looking forward to getting back home.

Loving, and enduring, EMC World

EMC World has had it's moments of brilliance and sheer drudgery. 

Loving...

The blogger's lounge

Some recognition of the value of collaboration

Espresso

The food

Lot's of goodies from vendors

Information packed sessions

Fitting in with this big a crowd of intelligencia

The search for a marrow donor for a sick associate. Something more important than all of us.

Time with Sweet wife and baby of mine

Enduring...

Tons of self-important people

Tons of blackberries

Absence of music
Not enough time to myself.

Some speakers are boring.

Evenings with unflexible people

Time away from my sweet wife and baby.

I'll get through it.

Blog update

Since I'm taking advantage of the excellent espresso machine in the blogger's lounge at EMC World, I thought I may as well update the blog that I do post to occasionally. I gained entrance as a blogger based largely on my twitter ID and while microblogging does count, this has a more mature feel to it. Probably a needless critique of twitter - in the process of taking over the world, but my brain is tired and I need the caffeine pretty desperately. 

So we're in Orlando FL, Christina and Charis are spending their days in the hotel as the rain continues to pour down. I spend all day at the convention center, either attending breakout sessions, roaming the solutions pavilion, or hiding out in the blogger's lounge. And I'm well ready to see my two ladies by the time the day is over. 

Today the day is moving pretty slowly, lack of sleep is catching up with me. One more blast of espresso should to it, and get me through the last session, then back to the castle and find something fun to do tonight. 

So that's life from Florida, viewed through fatigued and bleary eyes. I desperately need to write more often on here, and I shudder when I think of my music blog... Maybe more later.

New Baby Thoughts

It's been too easy to skip updating anyone through blogs. Our situation has been so static for so long that it's easy to feel like no one is interested in hearing the same complaints about the same things. Listed below are a few facebook statuses that I wrote that summarize some of my feelings of the past day or so... I'll leave you with those... at least for a start.

Sat, 4/25/2009 @ 10:03 PM
What an amazing day! The moment Christina held our baby in her arms, her face lit up. I've never seen her so happy. The moment I held her in my arms, deep in my heart, in places that have long been cold and hopeless, a spark of healing and hope glimmered. We don't know all that is left to be told in this story of ours, but tonight we know that she is beautiful, and she'll come home tomorrow.

Mon, 4/27/2009
My reactions to my first day of being a dad. It's the most energizing, exhausting, reassuring, scary, comfortable, awkward, easy, complicated, sweet smelling, foul smelling, happy, sobering, and rewarding thing that has ever happened to me. And I'm guessing it gets better from here. Oh and Christina is in her element! Stop by and visit.